I Watch as a pelican gently coasts along the waters in such a way one wouldn't dare disturb the tranquility of his life. Sudden envy corrupts my mind, jealousy of the creature that bobs along the lakeshore waters. Can such a life be so simplicit? How am I to find it? I carry the weight of my burdens and regrets wondering how much more my body can endure. I break apart into little fragments over the course of years as the people I love most have no choice but to watch me wilter into my sudden despair. Trailing away from my thoughts I find myself on this very dock writing in hopes that God can show me his mercy. Instead gifted me a pelican. Drop by drop, the lake disperses into beautiful ripples as the clouds cry delicate tears staining my face as if they were my own. As the clouds grew more ominous, her tears did not. Instead bathed me ever so wary, caressing my cheeks with her glistening waters. I could sense her fingertips lifting my chin towards her sky as she kissed my neck allowing her soothing touch to enter all of my body. My calling to home. I raced the length of the dock meeting at the entrance of the walking trail. My journey consisted of harmonious dancing through a mixture of trees and warm showers. Along the boardwalks, I danced and back under the forest canopy. My hair was washed clean of all that weighed me down. For once, in a long time, i am greeted by happiness. No other words can define this merciful experience just, Happiness....